I was reading an astrology thing that said Leos (which I am) sometimes have a tendency to sulk. Sure, us Leos are also born leaders and are naturally dominating in many ways … but we also have egos. Which lends well to feeling Superior, but these egos are also infamously fragile. Not so fragile it breaks … Leos also tend to be more optimistic than not, so setbacks don’t get us down for long. But sometime it’s long enough for one to vent online, for better or worse…. and probably worse.
I’m not 100 percent sure how much I believe in astrology … certainly there are submissive Leos as well, and it’d be interesting to see what some of my subs are in terms of signs and how it shapes them. But certainly many Leo traits are true of me. Kind and big-hearted? Check. Loyal – both to others but also demanding it from others? Check. Possessive? Check. Arrogant? Big check. Impatient? Definitely … and that sometimes has hurt me in demanding too much money too soon, but what can I say? I want it right away. So whether or not these traits exist in me because I’m a Leo or not… who knows. But there’s definitely quite a bit that lines up.
So last week I vented, and at least one person didn’t like it. This person didn’t think such talk was worthy of Master … even though my point was that I’m not one of these fakes that doesn’t show emotion but have always put myself out there. I wasn’t going to mention that, but tonight I saw that another (or the same? not sure) left negative feedback on Niteflirt, “Careful. If you offer him any suggestions about his style and how it could be more effective for you during cashrape, he takes you to task in posts on his blog.” So let me set the record straight here. First of all, this guy didn’t offer suggestions in our last encounter; he just repeated a criticism of me – not a constructive criticism, just as a critical statement – that he had made at least twice before. Other suggestions, such as a sub mentioning sometimes it’s good to vary up the rates a bit more with poppers (rather than increasing each time), I have taken. I know I have more to learn, and am willing to consider suggestions when conducive to my style and constructive in helping Me better serve all of you. And while I did talk about it in the blog, he makes it sound as if I revealed personal information. I didn’t. I didn’t mention his screenname or any other identifying information. And so, yeah, I’m going to take that to task here.
If that guy is reading this, I hope he can just move on, as I’m going to try here. Yes, his repeated criticism bruised my Leo ego and I may have overreacted… but nothing that warranted his response. There is a chance that again my tone will be mistaken, but I need to set the record straight about this blog. It is MY blog. I blog on a more consistent basis than most others, and of course I’m going to draw from my experiences – good or bad – here. Yet I keep things anonymous or ask for permission to use names / screennames. It’s one thing to give a bad review when warranted; it’s another thing to enjoy things so much that you keep coming back to give money over and over, only to lash out because a Flirt doesn’t want to hear the same old tired criticisms… and then talks about that ANONYMOUSLY in his blog. It’s enough to make one want to bang his head against the fucking wall. I understand the rating… it’s more the misleading (though not technically incorrect) comment that gets to me. But though I felt the need to correct the misleading aspect of it (it’s that headstrong Leo nature), I really am ready to move on and not dwell on that. Another trait of Leos is being straightforward, so you can take this tone however you want, but that doesn’t mean you’re making the right assumptions over my point or tone. Because honestly, despite seeing that feedback, I feel pretty damn fantastic… and optimistic about more cash in my future.
Part of that is thanks to other subs this week. I’ve received tributes from multiple subs, both ones I’ve worked with for a while and new ones, that helped to show me that when one faggot doesn’t know his place, there are plenty others that’d love to worship down at my feet. And one inferior’s words in particular really made me feel better:
“In the recent blogpost I just really like how human and real you seem. You are what you are.”
It’s reaffirming to know there are subs out there that like to worship someone that is real. Others can criticize, but the truth is, it helps me stand out. Not everyone wants the same thing. I’ve said before that there are different kind of Masters, and subs should find the one that is right for them. That isn’t always me, as I’ve said before. If you come to me anyway, I may still try to milk you out of as much as possible, if I can figure out a way to do so in my style. But sometimes I know I just am not the one to fulfill certain requests or fetishes, and that’s okay. If people want to call me out for not being a typical Master, go ahead. I’ll be over here collecting cash from the ones that are ready for someone that brings his real self to the party.
That sub later sent a tribute with the note: “Listened to wor$hip again tonight, while the husband was in the shower, and I even said the prayer to my one true master out loud! The superior GOD I was born to serve! Soon I’ll have to load more funds here, because I need to worship YOU, my new GOD! I can’t wait for you to get back so I can serve you in person! There is so much I want to tell you, Sir! So much I want to do for you! Total stud. Already getting addicted to your power. I love to tribute my GOD.”
FUCK YEAH, now that is what I am talking about. Sure, my hypnosis that has helped him feel that way… but my Superior voice, my superior talents, all combine to make that hypnosis effective. It may not work with everyone, and it may scare others with how effective it truly can be… but those that know the true power of the hypnosis can’t resist. The hypno also led to a different new sub, who I hope is enjoying his purchase of the ATM file (will be using you guys soon enough 😉 ), writing this: “I have been listening to your hypno recordings. you deserve my money more than me. I need to be used by you sir, and taken advantage of. How can I get my money to you sir?”